I put on an LP, now that night is here, and was struck by my gesture. That's how the indigent affluent spend their evenings - with fine stereos, turntables, not CDs. It gets worse. The LP I put on is a recording of Strauss' "Der Rosenkavalier," sung by Elisabeth Schwarzkopf. A collectible recording? We'll find out when I try selling it, along with much of what I own, in the weeks ahead.
This recording was given to me by a friend on his deathbed. How's that for opera? He knew he was sick and dying, so he cleared up the broader points of the business of being alive, settled into his (borrowed) house, saw a short list of friends, and drank the hemlock. It was actually a weak tea with a stupefying dose of drugs in it. A generous and humane agency in New York helped it happen.
I left with his LPs. Music that I hope he took with him somehow. Including Ms. Schwarzkopf, as the unhappy Marschallin. How to avoid the pain of age, even with money? Die youngish.
Money's not my problem right now. As in, I haven't got any. I have the scratchy voices of the past, on vinyl, like memories that relied on available technology. That's what memories do as you get older. At a certain point, they start popping and skipping. And drifting, on to the living and the dead, like -
Recently on CD, and on-line: "Lookbook," with Grant Cutler and Maggie Morrison.

Completely addictive.
Thank you for listening, ma'am.
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